I say I like to write. I have a blog. Do I write? No.
So how much do I really like it then if I don't often do it? Don't we end up doing what we really love to do?
I used to think that was the case.......that if you really loved something you would just do it. You wouldn't be able to help yourself. Like people who run and love it. I imagine that they wake up and just have to run 6 miles as much as someone else just has to wake up and take a shower or eat breakfast.
I'm reevaluating that theory. I don't know if it's true anymore. I'm starting to wonder if sometimes we can like doing something that is hard, or takes time or a certain kind of energy...and I'm wondering if just because you like something does it mean that you can't just coast into some kind of slump where the ordinary tasks of life just start to take over and eventually feed you some lie about how you must just like ordinary life better than the thing you might be drawn to. A lie about how you must not really like that thing anyway because if you really did you would just do it.
And I'll bet that the person who loves to run probably wouldn't mind sleeping in. And I'll bet it's hard sometimes to run 6 miles. And it certainly does take time and energy.
I started thinking about this today because several people commented about an article I wrote for our MOPS newsletter...and I remembered that I do like to write and that people have told me that they think I'm good at it. Then I sit down and look at the bookmark to my blog and I feel like I've neglected it too long and I wouldn't have enough time to really write something that anyone would care about reading....and it would just be easier to check my facebook page and see what everyone else is writing about. It's kind of equivalent to pulling the covers over my head instead of getting up and running.
I can't believe I'm using a running analogy. I can't even relate to it...I should check with someone who runs to verify if what I'm saying is even close to accurate. I won't though...I'll let someone call me out on it in their comments, if they so choose....
In the mean time, I've done it. It took time and a little bit of concentration to put down a few thoughts. But there it is. No big whoop. It's true, I do like it....I've said it and I've done it. I feel better now.
