We just joined a small group at our new church, although it feels weird to call it "our" church as we're so new and not feeling at home quite yet. Anyway, we were studying the passage of scripture about the sower and the seed and how the various kinds of soil make a huge difference as to how well a plant grows (Matthew 13). I found myself realizing that I have been choking lately. Without even being aware of it, I have allowed the "cares of the world and the pursuit of wealth" choke out the joy of living moment by moment in the presence of God.
Example: Some of you know that Bo was transferred to an office 17 miles from where we are renting a house. We have a one year lease, but I seem to think that I need to worry about whether or not we are going to move at the end of this year. I fret about whether or not we can afford to buy a house. I fret about where we may move. I worry about whether or not we can pay back the debt we incurred while Bo was in school. I question getting involved in groups in our part of town since we may not stay long. I stress about where MJ would go to school if we move. Choking....choking....choking. Not thriving...thriving...thriving. While I am wrapped up in calculating every inch of my future, I am making my mind and heart weary.
Pray for me that I will jump into some good soil...weed free soil...a place where I can see the light and experience joy in the process.
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